I have spent all night praying.
When I see other people suffer, I get really sad – and then I pray.
When I pray, I’m not exactly doing it the old school Christian way.. even though that is also a good way of communicating with the Great Spirit. I know the “Our Lord’s Prayer” that we, in the Christian countries learn from early age.
But a prayer to me is very personal, and should always come from the heart.
That’s why I usually start a prayer with a deep meditation. The way of meditation itself is a journey – as a shaman, I drum myself into a very deep meditation. This helps me clear my mind and opens the heart, so that my heart speaks – not my ego, that is always tempted to only pray for what I want and what I desire.
I cannot really explain the shamanic journey, that I through the past year – with great help from an old native american shaman – have learnt. That’s stuff enough for several blog posts – but the interesting thing is, that the prayer I want to say suddenly becomes pictures – or visions – rather than words.
Such a prayer is usually non-verbal, and is understood by everyone.
And that makes me happy, because if my heart only had room for myself, the prayers that comes through meditation would be all about myself. “I want a new job, I want to win the lottery, I want this, I want that” – but no.
Tonight, I wanted to pray for a friend who is very, very ill. And in the meditation, I saw a tree. For some reason, it was an orange tree – it was growing fast and was really beautiful. And this picture – this vision – was the prayer. No words, just a vision of a blooming tree. This means – to put words on it:
“may your spirit and body, and all that surrounds you, my friend, bloom and grow strong like this tree. It’s winter now, but spring will come. Yahete – from my heart”
I also prayed for everyone who knows this lovely person I was praying for – it’s a person who is loved by many people, and so – we are many who are worried.
This prayer, again, was made of images. The image this time was water, flashes of light, sun, rivers, colours – and I tried to send it to everyone. Put in words…. simply: “smile, joy, happiness – and hope!”
I have no idea how strongly these prayers help, or if they only help comforting myself.
But I believe from what I see, that healing and strength is to unexpectedly come this year. At least, that is what I ask for, and if it comes true – I have no more wishes for a loong time to come.